This past weekend, while my babies had their afternoon nap, I found myself fixated on one of my guilty pleasures: Keeping Up with the Kardashians.
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Yes, I know, many of you are probably asking yourselves why? But the simple answer is I have a weakness for reality TV.
However, this time it wasn't the craziness that is the Kardashians that held my attention.
It was the topic they were discussing, a topic that hit quite close to home.
For many new mothers, the body they are left with following the birth of their child is not the body they had nine months earlier.
Skin is loose, breasts are much larger, and that extra 25 to 50 pounds doesn't just melt away.
You are left with a figure that is foreign to you and it can be mentally and physically hard to accept.
This is what Kourtney Kardashian was dealing with during the episode I was watching.
As a mom who had the privilege of losing her weight in private, I can only sympathize with those who have to do it in the spotlight.
Too often celebrities are attacked for their post baby bodies and it is such a catch-22.
Either they loose the weight too quickly and are deemed unhealthy, or they don't loose it fast enough and are criticized and poked fun at when they step out in a bikini. It is these actions that have us normal, hormonal moms at a loss when it comes to losing those extra pounds.
However, celebrities like Drew Barrymore, Reese Witherspoon and Kourtney Kardashian have taken a stand against those critics and chose to loose their weight at a slow and steady, healthy rate.
After my daughter was born, I had a daunting 40 pounds to lose to get back to my pre-baby body.
I worked out, dieted, breastfed and did everything I could to the point of exhaustion to get back to the "old me."
Not only was I wearing myself out, but also I wasn't being the best mom I could be because I was always tired.
However, here's the kicker. Just as I was zoning in on my "ideal" weight, I found out I was pregnant with baby No. 2.
I have to say this revelation, as shocking as it was at the time, was the most freeing news I think I could have received.
It meant I could breath, eat and relax.
Learning from baby No. 1, I decided to do things a little bit different the second time around.
After my son was born my concern was not what the scale said or how I looked in the mirror.
It was what could I do to be happy, stay healthy and keep balanced. I also didn't rush myself. I let my body heal and when I was ready I joined a gym, learned how to eat better and took the time I needed for myself.
The second time around the weight did melt off. It may not have been as fast, but with a little motivation from Sarah, the best spin instructor there is, and a whole lot less pressure from yours truly, I worked my way back.
This is not the case for every mom out there. Some women's bodies are forever changed and that is not a bad thing. I know a number of women who have embraced their new bodies and look and feel better than ever.
There will always be insecurities lurking in the back of our mind, but that's because it's human nature.
The important lesson I learned was how important it is to be comfortable in your own skin.
It took me 30 years to learn to this lesson, 30 years and two children to let go of the image I tried so hard to be and 30 years, two children and whole lot of self-appreciation to be the person I have always wanted to be - truly happy.
Lyndsay McCready can be reached at 306-691-1263 or follow her on Twitter @Newsielou