As you may have seen in one of my previous columns, one of my new years resolutions was to lose weight.
By Samantha Emann, Special to the Times-Herald
I know, I know: you hear the same promise from at least one person at this same time of year. But for me, it is not a matter of wanting to lose weight. It’s a matter of needing to lose weight. And a lot of it.
My first step was to be honest with myself about how much I really needed to lose. I am not quite at the point yet where I am willing to disclose my current weight, but maybe along the way I will be.
After a recent trip to the doctor I realized I had no choice but to kick my own ass into action.
I also needed to accept that although there may have been multiple factors that can be attributed to my weight gain, the responsibility for losing it lies only with me. And it is actually a Moose Jaw program that will be helping me to do that.
You may have read in the Times-Herald or heard around town about the Healthy Weights Initiative program being run by Alliance Wellness and Rehabilitation for people with a BMI (body mass index) over 30.
It is a free program and one I hope to shortly become a part of.Through cognitive therapy, physical workouts and nutritional counselling offered by this program (did I mention it’s FREE) I and other Moose Javians will eventually be able to live better lives.
Whether it’s the stress of moving to a new place, adjusting to the new job or being too busy to care what I shove in my mouth at meal times, I have a long list of the reasons and excuses why my health and fitness are not what I want them to be.
But now I have begun to fear for my own health, and I have to put all the fear and doubt aside and learn to treat my own body and mind with a little more respect.
It only took a few years to gain the weight, but losing it and keeping it off will be something I do for the rest of my life.
The rising statistics concerning obesity are all too real and my only regret is that it has taken me this long to realize I no longer want to be part of those statistics.
More importantly I do not want to miss out on living my life the way I want to live it because I did not care enough about myself to do so.
I hope to document my own journey to wellness here in my column and on social media, and I invite anyone who may have the same goals in mind to share their own stories and journeys.
Along the way I will talk about the doubts, the cravings, and the pain, but also the big and small victories.
Maybe by next summer I will be able to wear that dreaded contraption they call a bathing suit.
We all have that one thing we want to be more than anything in this world and mine is to be happy. And I will not be happy until I am healthy.
Not skinny, not “hot”, but healthy.
You can reach Samantha Emann by e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org